Testimony #18 - Paul-André Minon

One gave me little pills to calm my seizures, anxiety, sleepless nights and pain....

One said, "It's to help you."
And in the beginning... yes, that helped.

The body calmed down, the mind slowed down, silence returned, pain disappeared.

But one day I understood that silence was not peace.
It was emptiness, and above all: dependence.

😶 I smile less.
💤 I feel less.
🌙 I sleep, but without dreams, and only if I take the pills at the right time.
🚶 I walk, but I don't live like I used to.

When I would like to stop, my body screams much louder than I do.
It cries, it tears me up inside.
And so few people can really understand this.

💊 We take legal drugs, packaged as medication.
We are promised stability, but slowly we are being chained to it.

When you want to breathe, everything strangles you with side effects and pain.

I do not reject mainstream medicine.
She saved my life several times, and I really admire my current neurologist and GP.
👩‍⚕️👩‍⚕️ They form an essential duo for me today.

I know I am not alone.
I am not complaining, I am explaining.

Some of my reactions or attitudes may be influenced by these "things" I consciously take every day.

Some people, even very close to me, don't fully understand that.
This text gives some explanations, but I do not blame anyone for not being able to fully understand it without having experienced it from the inside.

Except maybe one person, a single...
💔 but that's life, you have to take it as it comes, with as much wisdom as possible.

Daring to speak about everything without shame, in a straightforward way, is incredibly difficult, even with loved ones.

Yet there are some people with whom it works, simply, without self-censorship.
Often they are not the ones you had thought of first, and yet it falls on them.

That does not mean I reject the others.
Often, it is precisely with deep love or friendship that we censor ourselves,
and paradoxically, it is also with deep friendship that we dare to open up.

🌧️ Real healing is not completely getting rid of these treatments.
It is accepting the necessary and talking about it without shame,
The way you talk about the weather.

🕊️ That's it, the white prison.

(Some of this text does not come from me; I have adapted it to really suit me, but the original inspired me a lot).